For my literature coursework, I recently finished two new books which revolve around self-discovery and how these two hugely different protagonists endured massively different journeys to reach where they believed to be who they are. Then, last night I watched a film following two different teenagers doing exactly the same thing in different ways. It was as if three urgent reminders slapped me in the face that I need to get back on the road on my own voyage, but this stung a little when I thought I already knew who I was.
In life, you are often driven by the material things such as money and grades. Recently, my whole life has been driven by my A-Levels. It's difficult not to think this is the most important thing in your life when everyday it's drilled into your head, “Pass your A-Levels. Revise. What are your target grades? Have you chosen your first choice University? PASS YOUR A-LEVELS.” It's insane how much of yourself can be put on halt and potentially ripped from you whilst you focus on exams. Do not get me wrong, exams are important and moving on to further education or takin. the next step towards your future is a massive part of finding out who you are and who you want to be. But, investing all your energy and focus on your school life isn't the best investment for your journey of self-discovery.
These past weeks I have found myself being able to think of nothing else other than exams or whatever programme I am watching on Netflix. It has put me in a miserable state of mind because I didn't really know what I wanted in life or who I was becoming in order to achieve anything that I could potentially want. It was as if I had put thrown into a limbo and I was merely just a body existing amongst these material things. Half of the problem was that I already thought I knew who I was, I had a whole year enduring hardships which proved to me I could survive in the darkest of times. And that was who I was and I had everything and everyone I needed in order to continue my life in the utmost satisfaction. But for me to have believed myself back then, was for me to be living in complete ignorance. Hardships don't just stop when you think you've had the worst of it. Before I knew it, I was thrown back into that similar, same old darkness. I remember thinking how it wasn't fair because I already had to do this once and I came out alive and more content who I was then I ever had been before. In a way, I guess it may be life's way of telling you that you're not quite there yet and you don't just have to settle with what you have.
I am glad I am finally understanding this now because when I look back to everything I thought was who I wanted to be and what I was going to settle down with was just material objects and material people. You can so easily be thrown by material matters that in a few years just won't matter anymore. Like exams and driving tests and people who ignore you and people who pretend to be your friend. If I hadn't been in that darkness once again I wouldn't have been able to see that.
Once you realise that what you have isn't what you want or need in order to continue your journey of self-discovery, it's time you start making some changes and hard decisions. And this was what one of the protagonists in my books had to due, was withdraw from something she thought was her stimulus and driving point in life. It's a difficult transition and a hard choice to make to go from having this huge influential factor on your life, suddenly go. But you have to think, in a few days, weeks, year – is this all going to to matter? We have to learn to do what is best for us in order to be able to endure the hardships in life and be comfortable and excited with who we are.
It's a hard process, which I've learned from these books and films and my own endurance of my past self-discoveries about myself. But every step, decision, material object thrown is another step towards finally being able to complete this journey and being able to finally bath in that utmost happiness we all deserve. Being a teenager and a young adult is super hard, probably the worst part of your life because you are so clueless about the future and your present is so forever-changing. But what we do now, the focus we rightly give to our well-beings and the content of the decisions and changes we make...are all going to benefit and drive the exciting and fulfilling futures we unknowingly will have and deserve.
So...did I think I had finished my journey of self-discovery? Yes. In reality...I am only just getting started.
Go Nuts Guys.
In life, you are often driven by the material things such as money and grades. Recently, my whole life has been driven by my A-Levels. It's difficult not to think this is the most important thing in your life when everyday it's drilled into your head, “Pass your A-Levels. Revise. What are your target grades? Have you chosen your first choice University? PASS YOUR A-LEVELS.” It's insane how much of yourself can be put on halt and potentially ripped from you whilst you focus on exams. Do not get me wrong, exams are important and moving on to further education or takin. the next step towards your future is a massive part of finding out who you are and who you want to be. But, investing all your energy and focus on your school life isn't the best investment for your journey of self-discovery.
These past weeks I have found myself being able to think of nothing else other than exams or whatever programme I am watching on Netflix. It has put me in a miserable state of mind because I didn't really know what I wanted in life or who I was becoming in order to achieve anything that I could potentially want. It was as if I had put thrown into a limbo and I was merely just a body existing amongst these material things. Half of the problem was that I already thought I knew who I was, I had a whole year enduring hardships which proved to me I could survive in the darkest of times. And that was who I was and I had everything and everyone I needed in order to continue my life in the utmost satisfaction. But for me to have believed myself back then, was for me to be living in complete ignorance. Hardships don't just stop when you think you've had the worst of it. Before I knew it, I was thrown back into that similar, same old darkness. I remember thinking how it wasn't fair because I already had to do this once and I came out alive and more content who I was then I ever had been before. In a way, I guess it may be life's way of telling you that you're not quite there yet and you don't just have to settle with what you have.
I am glad I am finally understanding this now because when I look back to everything I thought was who I wanted to be and what I was going to settle down with was just material objects and material people. You can so easily be thrown by material matters that in a few years just won't matter anymore. Like exams and driving tests and people who ignore you and people who pretend to be your friend. If I hadn't been in that darkness once again I wouldn't have been able to see that.
Once you realise that what you have isn't what you want or need in order to continue your journey of self-discovery, it's time you start making some changes and hard decisions. And this was what one of the protagonists in my books had to due, was withdraw from something she thought was her stimulus and driving point in life. It's a difficult transition and a hard choice to make to go from having this huge influential factor on your life, suddenly go. But you have to think, in a few days, weeks, year – is this all going to to matter? We have to learn to do what is best for us in order to be able to endure the hardships in life and be comfortable and excited with who we are.
It's a hard process, which I've learned from these books and films and my own endurance of my past self-discoveries about myself. But every step, decision, material object thrown is another step towards finally being able to complete this journey and being able to finally bath in that utmost happiness we all deserve. Being a teenager and a young adult is super hard, probably the worst part of your life because you are so clueless about the future and your present is so forever-changing. But what we do now, the focus we rightly give to our well-beings and the content of the decisions and changes we make...are all going to benefit and drive the exciting and fulfilling futures we unknowingly will have and deserve.
So...did I think I had finished my journey of self-discovery? Yes. In reality...I am only just getting started.
Go Nuts Guys.