This has been on my mind now for a while and I think it's time I breathe it all out into a blog; as today when in deep conversation with a good friend of mine she reminded me of all of these feelings. I haven't made some very good decisions in my time...but these 'decisions' are only bad from the people looking in. To me they seem like the greatest ideas on earth. Have you ever had someone disagree with you about something you've thought was great but they've thought wasn't worth your time? I am pretty sure we've all been there and it's frustrating when people can't accept alternatives.
Recently I've been through a “rough” time and it hasn't been until now that I've started to really get over it and feel a little human again. However, due to this '”rough” time, people have started to form opinions about my situation and what's good for me from now on. It's okay for people to have opinions on certain things or people because that's what we all do naturally; but when you force these opinions on someone who disagrees or doesn't want to hear them; it genuinely hurts. I've tried my best to ignore them because on some levels I guess I agreed but that's not the point any more. I've lived the scenario and I know the reasoning behind these opinions more than anyone else so surely the only opinion that should really matter is mine? But I am still bombarded with insults that I have tried to ignore; until now.
Nobody knows what's best for me but me. Sure it's okay for people to throw in a suggestion here and there but in the end it's going to be what I chose for myself. That's the same with all of us; we all have decisions to make no matter how big or small and in the end we're all going to make them ourselves; help maybe be welcomed but it's still us deciding. So it annoys me when people say “this isn't good for you” because how would you know? People watch our lives from the sidelines and without really looking any further than the front cover think they know the whole story. We've lived our own lives and we know the storyline better than anyone so the only one is really qualified to know what's good for us is ourselves. And maybe we don't know what's good for us but hey – we'll figure it out eventually. It just makes it harder to make a difficult decision when people aren't supportive of whatever you do, pushing people down from something that makes them happy is cruel. Whether you agree with it or not...look at their smile?
My smile. No one seems to remember it because of this situation and this is another thing that people have seem to have just forgotten whilst growing up; if something ends terrible and someone is upset – that's all anyone will think about. Everybody remembers the bloody, tearful end but nobody remembers the adventure and the happiness beforehand. So yeah, I was crying and heartbroken, but does nobody remember how happy I was before? Isn't that all that matters? Not everything lasts but we should celebrating the chances and the fact we had all that time and all these memories instead of dis-condoning remembering because of this end. This brings me back to people just looking at the cover and thinking they know the whole story without reading the book. What makes us happy we sometimes can't define because sometimes the things that make us happy won't make sense to other people. But happiness doesn't have to make sense to the world when it makes us smile, who cares if nobody else understands it? I think we need to learn that if somebody is happy with whatever abnormal situation they are we need to sit back and enjoy the fact that they are feeling alive. I am in one of those abnormal situations and for the first time in a while I've felt really good and I understand my stupid little scenario perfectly but nobody else does. So I was met with insults and anger which made me feel guilty for my own perfect serenity. It stops.
We all lead very different lives with very different stories to read. Only we know ourselves why we say the things we do or put ourselves in the situations we are in. If we can't have happiness the way we intended we'll find another way, like I did. People need to remember the happiness instead of the bloody end because being negative all your life is just going to suck. You may disagree with something someone does or say and you may not like how they are happy; but like the fact that they are happy instead of shooting it down. It should be encouraged because happiness these days just seems so hard to find. If it doesn't effect you in anyway then be a good friend; you don't know the story like they do so ignore the cover and start to see the book for the way it truly is.
So...yeah it may seem to you that I make stupid decisions and silly mistakes and yeah maybe I don't appear to deserve what makes me happy or other people involved don't deserve it. Don't I deserve to be happy? Or at least the chance to? Because we all do. I want you to all think of something that makes you happy and if you don't have it go grab it and if you have it then smile your face off! Ignore everyone else, ignore the cover of your book, nobody needs to understand but you. Do what it takes to make you happy and screw the rest of the world. Life is so fucking short guys, shorter than me *cue laughter* and I can't emphasize this enough. There is no time for tears and regret and feeling guilty over somebody else wasting their time cutting you down – get out there and find that happiness, grab it and never fucking let go.
Have a great week and thank you all for reading :)
Recently I've been through a “rough” time and it hasn't been until now that I've started to really get over it and feel a little human again. However, due to this '”rough” time, people have started to form opinions about my situation and what's good for me from now on. It's okay for people to have opinions on certain things or people because that's what we all do naturally; but when you force these opinions on someone who disagrees or doesn't want to hear them; it genuinely hurts. I've tried my best to ignore them because on some levels I guess I agreed but that's not the point any more. I've lived the scenario and I know the reasoning behind these opinions more than anyone else so surely the only opinion that should really matter is mine? But I am still bombarded with insults that I have tried to ignore; until now.
Nobody knows what's best for me but me. Sure it's okay for people to throw in a suggestion here and there but in the end it's going to be what I chose for myself. That's the same with all of us; we all have decisions to make no matter how big or small and in the end we're all going to make them ourselves; help maybe be welcomed but it's still us deciding. So it annoys me when people say “this isn't good for you” because how would you know? People watch our lives from the sidelines and without really looking any further than the front cover think they know the whole story. We've lived our own lives and we know the storyline better than anyone so the only one is really qualified to know what's good for us is ourselves. And maybe we don't know what's good for us but hey – we'll figure it out eventually. It just makes it harder to make a difficult decision when people aren't supportive of whatever you do, pushing people down from something that makes them happy is cruel. Whether you agree with it or not...look at their smile?
My smile. No one seems to remember it because of this situation and this is another thing that people have seem to have just forgotten whilst growing up; if something ends terrible and someone is upset – that's all anyone will think about. Everybody remembers the bloody, tearful end but nobody remembers the adventure and the happiness beforehand. So yeah, I was crying and heartbroken, but does nobody remember how happy I was before? Isn't that all that matters? Not everything lasts but we should celebrating the chances and the fact we had all that time and all these memories instead of dis-condoning remembering because of this end. This brings me back to people just looking at the cover and thinking they know the whole story without reading the book. What makes us happy we sometimes can't define because sometimes the things that make us happy won't make sense to other people. But happiness doesn't have to make sense to the world when it makes us smile, who cares if nobody else understands it? I think we need to learn that if somebody is happy with whatever abnormal situation they are we need to sit back and enjoy the fact that they are feeling alive. I am in one of those abnormal situations and for the first time in a while I've felt really good and I understand my stupid little scenario perfectly but nobody else does. So I was met with insults and anger which made me feel guilty for my own perfect serenity. It stops.
We all lead very different lives with very different stories to read. Only we know ourselves why we say the things we do or put ourselves in the situations we are in. If we can't have happiness the way we intended we'll find another way, like I did. People need to remember the happiness instead of the bloody end because being negative all your life is just going to suck. You may disagree with something someone does or say and you may not like how they are happy; but like the fact that they are happy instead of shooting it down. It should be encouraged because happiness these days just seems so hard to find. If it doesn't effect you in anyway then be a good friend; you don't know the story like they do so ignore the cover and start to see the book for the way it truly is.
So...yeah it may seem to you that I make stupid decisions and silly mistakes and yeah maybe I don't appear to deserve what makes me happy or other people involved don't deserve it. Don't I deserve to be happy? Or at least the chance to? Because we all do. I want you to all think of something that makes you happy and if you don't have it go grab it and if you have it then smile your face off! Ignore everyone else, ignore the cover of your book, nobody needs to understand but you. Do what it takes to make you happy and screw the rest of the world. Life is so fucking short guys, shorter than me *cue laughter* and I can't emphasize this enough. There is no time for tears and regret and feeling guilty over somebody else wasting their time cutting you down – get out there and find that happiness, grab it and never fucking let go.
Have a great week and thank you all for reading :)