People will always have problems in life. It may be evident they are hurting or it might not be, but there will always be something present. These people, will be people that you love dearly...and to see somebody you love hurt, is an awfully painful process to undertake. I understand this on whole new levels because I have experienced it myself. But there is something people forget, these people whom are hurting, probably don't care that they are hurting...they only care that they are hurting you.
I have hurt a few people in my lifetime through the pain I have caused myself. And sometimes the thought that I have hurt other people makes me want to improve myself, change myself, manipulate my thoughts and feelings in some way that would enable me to be a better person so I would stop hurting the people I loved through the pain I always felt. But sometimes we can't do that, there are unexplainable things that occur sometimes in life that makes it almost an impossibility for people to improve at a quicker and substantial pace, if at all. It kills me and other people inside that we can't change ourselves for the good of the people we love. For if there was one reason I would ever want to get better, it would be so the people I cared about would stop worrying.
But when this isn't the case, we have to keep on living. And the people we love have to keep on living too. I don't think it is fair at all that the people we love then turn against us in this time of need. I have confided in people in absolute confidence and trust because I loved them and they knew I needed help. This has been twisted horrifically on me and I have been...more or less betrayed. "The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies. It comes from your friends and loved ones." Upon my friends realisation that they had done this they didn't understand why as they thought they were helping, but they were far from it. Look guys, sometimes what's best for someone isn't what they say they need, I understand that. But there is a certain level of trust and loyalty that you need to respect in a friendship. It takes one tiny mistake to go too far and you've ruined everything. "Sometimes the closest people to you betray you, and your home isn't a place you can be happy anymore. It's hard, but it's true" - P.C Cast.
I've had people I love and I have wanted to do specific things they have told me not to do in order to help them get better. But they didn't want me to do those things and I needed to respect that, maybe in the long-run it would help them and they will get better. But they will always look back on you as the one person who ruined everything for them for the short-time period where life didn't look as if anything would get better, black clouds to compliment their already black days. You may sit there and think you can live with that, if they get better but don't want to love you anymore you can be okay, but you won't. I promise you. It makes you feel good to look at another person being happy and knowing that you enabled that to happen, but it will crush you when you can't be involved. It will hurt so bad and then maybe you'll finally understand what it felt like. Respect boundaries.
I don't think I'll ever forgive this person, for what they did was so far over the line, the line is a dot to them. It's as if they smiled, shook my hand and thought "I'm going to screw you over" and they did it for the own selfish needs. Not because it was for "my own welfare" but because they were worried and didn't want the stress and the problem on their shoulders anymore. Maybe one day I'll thank them, for betraying me...because maybe this will help. But always remember I go because I have to.
Sigh. Go nuts guys.
I have hurt a few people in my lifetime through the pain I have caused myself. And sometimes the thought that I have hurt other people makes me want to improve myself, change myself, manipulate my thoughts and feelings in some way that would enable me to be a better person so I would stop hurting the people I loved through the pain I always felt. But sometimes we can't do that, there are unexplainable things that occur sometimes in life that makes it almost an impossibility for people to improve at a quicker and substantial pace, if at all. It kills me and other people inside that we can't change ourselves for the good of the people we love. For if there was one reason I would ever want to get better, it would be so the people I cared about would stop worrying.
But when this isn't the case, we have to keep on living. And the people we love have to keep on living too. I don't think it is fair at all that the people we love then turn against us in this time of need. I have confided in people in absolute confidence and trust because I loved them and they knew I needed help. This has been twisted horrifically on me and I have been...more or less betrayed. "The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies. It comes from your friends and loved ones." Upon my friends realisation that they had done this they didn't understand why as they thought they were helping, but they were far from it. Look guys, sometimes what's best for someone isn't what they say they need, I understand that. But there is a certain level of trust and loyalty that you need to respect in a friendship. It takes one tiny mistake to go too far and you've ruined everything. "Sometimes the closest people to you betray you, and your home isn't a place you can be happy anymore. It's hard, but it's true" - P.C Cast.
I've had people I love and I have wanted to do specific things they have told me not to do in order to help them get better. But they didn't want me to do those things and I needed to respect that, maybe in the long-run it would help them and they will get better. But they will always look back on you as the one person who ruined everything for them for the short-time period where life didn't look as if anything would get better, black clouds to compliment their already black days. You may sit there and think you can live with that, if they get better but don't want to love you anymore you can be okay, but you won't. I promise you. It makes you feel good to look at another person being happy and knowing that you enabled that to happen, but it will crush you when you can't be involved. It will hurt so bad and then maybe you'll finally understand what it felt like. Respect boundaries.
I don't think I'll ever forgive this person, for what they did was so far over the line, the line is a dot to them. It's as if they smiled, shook my hand and thought "I'm going to screw you over" and they did it for the own selfish needs. Not because it was for "my own welfare" but because they were worried and didn't want the stress and the problem on their shoulders anymore. Maybe one day I'll thank them, for betraying me...because maybe this will help. But always remember I go because I have to.
Sigh. Go nuts guys.