I hope you find it. I gosh I hope you find it. Whatever it is that you are looking for. Whether it takes a year or a day or a couple of those in fact, I hope you get there one day.
I hope you have friendships that make you laugh until your stomach is sore, the kind of laughter where you're grabbing your stomach curled over on the floor, tears dancing from your eyes and in those few moments where you sigh away the laughter and wipe away the tears -you smile, then look at your friends and appreciate every single moment they have created for you and every tiny slick of love they have provided that has kept you going through thick and thin.
I hope you find that one day you come home from work, throw your bags in the hallway, kick your shoes off and jump hastily on the couch to find that you hadn't actually come home from a day of work but you had come home from a day of doing something you love dearly. Perhaps a day of complete serenity in your imagination or complete hands on creativity. Anything and everything, whatever it is, it makes hours fly and is your own alarm in the morning, when you actually want to wake up.
I hope you find someone who gives you butterflies after years of still giving you butterflies. When you're laying in silence with the darkness absorbing you and the duvets hugging you and all you can do is smile and be serene because everything you need is there holding you right back. With your eyes closed and their not so good but not so terrible singing breaks the silence in whispers and fills the entire room to every corner with everything and anything you've ever known...with light.
I hope one day you look back on everything you ever done and laugh to yourself because the regrets you seeked don't exist and you realize they never did. Everything has contributed in one way or another in helping you become the person you are in that day and who you are in the day is everything you've ever aspired to be. The pain and mistakes...they are all apart of the sum and without them it wouldn't make sense, so you embrace them wholly as a part of you, yet not defining you completely.
I hope that you're reading this with all these plans in your head because dreams should be plans because you will put them into action. I believe in you and you should too. "One minute you're 17 and planning for someday and then quietly without you ever really noticing someday is today and then it's yesterday and this is your life" Except it IS your life and someday was the best day and every single day afterwards is too.
So, I hope you pick up your coffee at exactly the right temperature and happen to look out the window and capture the light just the way you like it.
I hope you find it.
Go nuts, love me.
I hope you have friendships that make you laugh until your stomach is sore, the kind of laughter where you're grabbing your stomach curled over on the floor, tears dancing from your eyes and in those few moments where you sigh away the laughter and wipe away the tears -you smile, then look at your friends and appreciate every single moment they have created for you and every tiny slick of love they have provided that has kept you going through thick and thin.
I hope you find that one day you come home from work, throw your bags in the hallway, kick your shoes off and jump hastily on the couch to find that you hadn't actually come home from a day of work but you had come home from a day of doing something you love dearly. Perhaps a day of complete serenity in your imagination or complete hands on creativity. Anything and everything, whatever it is, it makes hours fly and is your own alarm in the morning, when you actually want to wake up.
I hope you find someone who gives you butterflies after years of still giving you butterflies. When you're laying in silence with the darkness absorbing you and the duvets hugging you and all you can do is smile and be serene because everything you need is there holding you right back. With your eyes closed and their not so good but not so terrible singing breaks the silence in whispers and fills the entire room to every corner with everything and anything you've ever known...with light.
I hope one day you look back on everything you ever done and laugh to yourself because the regrets you seeked don't exist and you realize they never did. Everything has contributed in one way or another in helping you become the person you are in that day and who you are in the day is everything you've ever aspired to be. The pain and mistakes...they are all apart of the sum and without them it wouldn't make sense, so you embrace them wholly as a part of you, yet not defining you completely.
I hope that you're reading this with all these plans in your head because dreams should be plans because you will put them into action. I believe in you and you should too. "One minute you're 17 and planning for someday and then quietly without you ever really noticing someday is today and then it's yesterday and this is your life" Except it IS your life and someday was the best day and every single day afterwards is too.
So, I hope you pick up your coffee at exactly the right temperature and happen to look out the window and capture the light just the way you like it.
I hope you find it.
Go nuts, love me.