So, the other day something very serious happened to me and it got me thinking about the reasons behind it. I mean - there has to be a reason for everything that happens right? A justified reason as to why you did or said something, a justified reason as to why someone did or said something to you? The example I will use, like the majority of my blogs, is when you're in a relationship or friendship.
This isn't the first time this has happened and knowing us it probably won't be the last. But me and my boyfriend were casually laying down having a nice conversation when suddenly he turns to me, looks me dead in the eye and questions whether or not we should be together. WHY does this happen?! It has always confused me and it will continue to confuse me for the rest of my life no doubt. Two people can be in a relationship for years and be head over heels in love and then one day, one of the two will just wake up and decide "I really don't love you anymore." What the fuck triggers in their mind that suddenly stops the love? If nothing has changed you have no reason as to why the relationship should end, why would your brain suddenly just...stop the love? I know I have discussed the idea of love coming from hormones released from your brain - even so what tells these hormones to stop being produced? It cannot be your emotions if your emotions one day love someone and the next don't. You can't fall out of love someone that fast. Its's impossible!
You could question that perhaps the relationship or friendship had been going downhill recently, but even so, if you love someone you're going to want to try and work something out to keep it going which is what I did with my boyfriend. I sat down and listed all of the things I can change about myself to keep the relationship alive or to sort out any issues we have. The only probably with him and this problem, that also occurs with a lot of people, is that they are too afraid to talk about how they are feeling or what problems they are having - so they just do what they think is the easiest option to make the problems all go away. Cutting things off.
This scares me to death. I promised myself that I would never let anyone close enough to me that without them I wouldn't know who I am anymore. If he just got up and left, I wouldn't have any clue what to do. "I made you my world and you left me with nothing". One day and it will happen eventually, he is going to wake up and those hormones are just not going to be there anymore and he's going to pierce everything I know into nonexistence and then what am I to do? Which is why I am sat here questioning why it happens in the first place?
Maybe there is something in the deepest, darkest corner of their mind that they aren't telling you I mean, you could be sat right next to a person and they could feel a miles away. Sometimes these ideas can start as a tiny atom within this empty corner of their mind and they will barely think about it - but like the universe it will expand and expand until eventually there is nothing they can think about and just as you predicted it will implode and those words you felt were unjustified and out of the blue will come spilling out and you're left with nothing but pictures and the smell of their cologne.
You shouldn't blame them for this. There is nothing they can do - because I can promise you they probably tried and tried to keep this atom from imploding. But it could happen to you - you may defeat it but not everyone can be as strong. I think we need to accept the fact that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes that reason isn't so clear as we would like it to be. It's just fates way of telling you that...for a while you were heading down the wrong path and they needed to set you straight. Or it was just another heartbreak closer to the one who will finally not have random imploding atoms in their mind. Remember it wasn't you. Sometimes the universe can do crazy things, but hey, we're all a little crazy, right?
This isn't the first time this has happened and knowing us it probably won't be the last. But me and my boyfriend were casually laying down having a nice conversation when suddenly he turns to me, looks me dead in the eye and questions whether or not we should be together. WHY does this happen?! It has always confused me and it will continue to confuse me for the rest of my life no doubt. Two people can be in a relationship for years and be head over heels in love and then one day, one of the two will just wake up and decide "I really don't love you anymore." What the fuck triggers in their mind that suddenly stops the love? If nothing has changed you have no reason as to why the relationship should end, why would your brain suddenly just...stop the love? I know I have discussed the idea of love coming from hormones released from your brain - even so what tells these hormones to stop being produced? It cannot be your emotions if your emotions one day love someone and the next don't. You can't fall out of love someone that fast. Its's impossible!
You could question that perhaps the relationship or friendship had been going downhill recently, but even so, if you love someone you're going to want to try and work something out to keep it going which is what I did with my boyfriend. I sat down and listed all of the things I can change about myself to keep the relationship alive or to sort out any issues we have. The only probably with him and this problem, that also occurs with a lot of people, is that they are too afraid to talk about how they are feeling or what problems they are having - so they just do what they think is the easiest option to make the problems all go away. Cutting things off.
This scares me to death. I promised myself that I would never let anyone close enough to me that without them I wouldn't know who I am anymore. If he just got up and left, I wouldn't have any clue what to do. "I made you my world and you left me with nothing". One day and it will happen eventually, he is going to wake up and those hormones are just not going to be there anymore and he's going to pierce everything I know into nonexistence and then what am I to do? Which is why I am sat here questioning why it happens in the first place?
Maybe there is something in the deepest, darkest corner of their mind that they aren't telling you I mean, you could be sat right next to a person and they could feel a miles away. Sometimes these ideas can start as a tiny atom within this empty corner of their mind and they will barely think about it - but like the universe it will expand and expand until eventually there is nothing they can think about and just as you predicted it will implode and those words you felt were unjustified and out of the blue will come spilling out and you're left with nothing but pictures and the smell of their cologne.
You shouldn't blame them for this. There is nothing they can do - because I can promise you they probably tried and tried to keep this atom from imploding. But it could happen to you - you may defeat it but not everyone can be as strong. I think we need to accept the fact that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes that reason isn't so clear as we would like it to be. It's just fates way of telling you that...for a while you were heading down the wrong path and they needed to set you straight. Or it was just another heartbreak closer to the one who will finally not have random imploding atoms in their mind. Remember it wasn't you. Sometimes the universe can do crazy things, but hey, we're all a little crazy, right?