We've always had the power to change something in our lives if we wanted it to change. I have always believed if there is something in life that you do not like, something about yourself that you just cannot live with, you can change it. Things change and we have that choice and that power to make it happen. There are way too many people out there who are just not aware of this, so many people believe things happen for a reason and that's just it, there is nothing more or less. It's heartbreaking, to see someone live a life they don't want to be living. We have the power, we have the choice and we have a lifetime to change our minds.
This occurred to me last night in deep heated argument with one of my close friends, I was throwing all these negative factors of my life at them, one after the after "You ruined this, I ruined this, stay here, go away, I can't do this, or that, I need this and that, I can't have this or that" and so on. And after they sat there and listened to it all they just replied "but things can change Gee". And I went to sleep that evening with so many things flying through my head, but most of all it was that tiny "but". I can sit here and complain for the rest of my life about everything that has gone wrong and everything that will keep going wrong; or I can grab it with both hands and change it. I woke up with a smile because that's exactly what I am going to do.
Sometimes not everything will go as planned. You will go out with the intention of changing something and it won't work. I don't think this is any reason to necessarily give up. If it doesn't work the first time, try again. You can only go as far as you dream, so dream bigger and bigger right? Don't create limitations for yourself. There will be days where you want to throw everything in the air, maybe even burn it and just say "fuck it, fuck this, fuck that, fuck my life and fuck you!" - trust me I know this feeling because I pretty much feel like that everyday. "But things can change" As a silly yet prime example of this, the other evening my bestfriend and I intended to get the train to reading, we read the times as "20:20 and 20:25" and my friend decided to get the second train as there will be less stops. It wasn't until after the first train went passed that we realised the next train was actually at 21:25 not 20:25. At first I was so angry and tired and we just didn't know what to do. But things could change..."I could fall in love tonight, with someone on the second train" I said. It's important to always have an alternative approach to things, if something doesn't go right, make it go right!
"Sometimes you make choices. And sometimes choices make you" There are things in life that will happen that you will have no control over and maybe you can't change them. Maybe it's out of your hands and in someone else's. I am experiencing this right, there is something I need but I can't have because it's up to somebody else completely as to whether that thing will be present in my life. However, if they don't want it now I don't think they ever will. Yeah, things could change but that's a choice that will make me. Sometimes we have to let fate take control and the way we can approach this still is having that hope, things will change and they will...just maybe not in the way you had originally thought. But that doesn't mean it's still not okay.
So, I didn't fall in love with anyone on the second train that evening, but that's okay because I still had a really amazing time. And I learnt that evening and last night that things can change and whether we make that choice or the choice makes us it's going to be something that changed for the better whether we know it at first or not. It's important to change your perspective always, if you want to make the most out of everything and anything, specially the bad times. Grab life with both hands and remember, if you choose not to get on the first train, the second one will only be an hour later.
Go nuts guys.